The Spark: A Quest For Vibrance

It has come to my attention more strongly, in the recent week, that I was existing much of the last year so immersed in Mr. Sweetie’s growing and changing that I was neglecting my own spark. Yes, I finally managed to start making time to continue to pursue the things that I love, but I feel that I wasn’t operating as my most vibrant self. Come to think of it, it has been a while since I felt that I was, even before Sweetie was born!

This isn’t to say that there haven’t been some beautiful goings-on, or to say that I have just been a horrid person. It’s just that, I realized a few days ago, there is a part of my soul, the wild part, that has been hibernating. And it is stirring.

I have been told, by many people over the course of my life, in one way or another, that I have a certain spark that they have not encountered much, if at all, before. I don’t believe, however, that I am part of a select group that possesses this spark. What I believe, is that I am just someone who has a thin filter between my vibrant self and the rest of the world. I believe that everyone possesses that spark; it’s just that many people don’t tap into it much.

But I haven’t been tapping into it much, either. I haven’t heard someone say that to me in a long time, that I have a “spark”. Until recently, when an old friend I hadn’t heard from in years and years, contacted me and told me so, because he was present in my life at a time when that spark was in bloom. Incidentally, I had just started to feel that something was amiss in my life, and his reminding me of that part of myself clarified the question I had been asking: I feel like I went on vacation, and I don’t know how to return. Where did I go? And how do I get back?

I want to know the answers. I have decided that this is my newest quest, for myself, and for everyone who knows me or will ever meet me. I believe it will make me a better, happier person, wife, and mami. And I am so excited to begin!

Have you ever experienced this feeling? Did you find your spark again? Feel free to leave a comment in the space provided! Thanks for reading!

 

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Mami

Mami is an artist, aspiring entrepreneur, and first-time, full-time mother. She enjoys long walks with Mr. Sweetie, good food and cooking, her family and dear friends, writing, arting and crafting. She doesn't know everything, but wants to learn, and loves to do research and share what she finds. She thinks life is like a box of puzzle pieces: you keep trying until it fits, because every piece has its place. She owns and operates whatever she sets her mind to, and knows that the sky is only the limit if you haven't left the ground yet.

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2 Responses

  1. Rebecca says:

    I just have to say, I met you post-baby and I totally see the spark… maybe now it’s manifested into something a little different! But I definitely can relate and totally get what you are saying. 🙂

    • Mami says:

      Hi Rebecca!

      Thank you for your comment – for leaving one, and for what you said. It was beautifully encouraging!

      Hugs to you and your sweeties 🙂

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